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[November 24th 2006|10.48am] |
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Ok, so I figured out this Jeremiah kid that I was going out for like 9 months with wasn't a good person. He brought me down and I am very down now. It hasn't been worse. My mom wants me to start seeing a therapist again ew :( but ya figures I don't want to. They wouldn't be able to help me. I just have had enough with the world and this dumb town. I need to rise above everyone else because it's stupid people's mindless games that annoy me to death. I need someone to bring me up and to feel like I actually deserve living. Right now, at this point, I feel like I do not deserve anything. Life, love, happiness, a family..... I am so greedy. I hate myself as a human being. I don't even deserve to be called a human being. But of course, we were all born greedy, stubborn, and selfish.. hmmm maybe we were suppose to change? I didn't.
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[August 17th 2006|3.36pm] |
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I read back on all these old entries from when I was in Florida
and I realize how happy I was there and how much of a life I did have becuase I actually had girl problems and stuff to talk about, but now I don't..
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[March 17th 2005|10.23pm] |
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I had a nice night. Very nice, actually.
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[February 24th 2005|5.52pm] |
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my aunt died yesterday. jonny's birthday..
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[February 12th 2005|11.00am] |
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last night was so horrible. except the times in the movie where i was holding jonnys hand. that was nice. but at the end i was hugging him good bye and i didn't kiss him and i think he was trying to and i just said i'll see you later.. ugh i'm so stupid i feel so bad. grr laura should die. i'm about to go to the mall to get my nails done.
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[February 9th 2005|6.08pm] |
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today was so boring. like el blah. i had a bad dream last night and i woke up all sweaty i would say what it was about but it's sort of imbarrasing. jonny wasn't at school *tear.
i'm so bored. my knee hurts too which sucks.
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[February 7th 2005|6.01pm] |
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oh my god. cant breathhhhhhh tooo many M&M's toooo mannyyy
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[February 6th 2005|10.00pm] |
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eagles suck. they lost the stupid superbowl. its totally pissing me off and it's not cool...NOT COOL. tom brady is cute in those hot tight spandex pants. yum yum yum. we ate way too much and feel really fat. yippie. yeah and stupid people are pissing me off to. i simply ask this one PERSON to stop going away for 2 seconds and coming cus it fills my screen with shit. then she gets into all this personal stuff that right now i really don't care about. she goes oh well you don't know what's happening in my life right now. i'm like wtf i simply asked you to do something either you are or you're so pick one. then she starts talking about a "rocky road" with this "loved person". yeah okay thanks for sharing. then she liked made dean block me probably because i was "pmsing". stupid shit seriously. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr AH TOUCH DOWNNNN HOOT HOOT HOOT HOOT! they still have a chance. a little less than 2 mins till the end of the game and if they get a touch down they SO win. yayyyyyyy well whatever my tummy hurts and i have homework and school tomorrow. yay for me
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[February 6th 2005|11.03am] |
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I'm pretty bored. I woke up fuckin early and like sat around doing nothing. like i seriously was just sitting there and i wasn't thinking or anything. i didn't get enough sleep last night i guess. when natalie came over it was fun. no there werent any lesbian moments except i sat on her lap lmao but other than that...hmm now i'm listening to the cd that i basically stole from my cousin. i remember when they came over it was so funny cus he sang to this real hard core rap and he knew all the lyrics and like it was about killing and drugs and everything then my dad came in and caught him and hes like "what were you guys listening to?" errmm nothing! really nothing! and last night nate was actually nice to me. which was pretty awesome. and like earlier that day my mom was suggesting that we should "hang out". i was like wtf mom he hates me and shes like ohhh i guess it would be kinda weird! cheaa. hmm i love this song..
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[February 5th 2005|1.35pm] |
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well today has been very boring. There is no one online. Well anyone that i want to talk to. it feels later than 1:30. I guess it's the fact that I woke up so early cus my sister kept asking me for my cell phone. I played counter-strike for like 2 hours and I called jesus like 5 times but he won't pick up his phone. I really need someone to talk to. Mickey is officially an ass. he called me a racoon? i don't know why...but he did. well he shouldn't be talking. little fag. literally. he went out with nick. ew that is so gross. and jesus said jonny stuck up for me or something? aw he's so nice. I guess he really does love me. I love him so much. Like he's the first boyfriend that I can really trust cus I know he likes me and he wouldn't do anything stupid or pressure me into stuff like cory did. hmm I wish he could come over. SO bored! tehe i'd be fun if he was here. my mom already likes him and she doesn't even know him. it annoys me that my dad calls dean...deano...he doesn't understand that's like a...errrr >< I can't believe nick actually talked to me. so bored
( guns go bang! bang bang bang...buahaha )
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[February 4th 2005|7.54pm] |
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Okay, I realize that my entry before this one didn't make much sense. it's a waste of time to read it so don't. my stomach hurts like a bitch and I had the most interesting conversation with Jonny after school. And with Mickey. Mickey...makes me think...Tian Tian is right about Mickey and Jonny. I won't say anything but I now where you are coming from. I don't really care though it doesn't really strike me as something interesting, important, or something to care about. Although it makes me wonder why Jonny would do that...blah blah blah. My back hurts. I can't wait for the superbowl on sunday..yay go eagles. I get so hyper on superbowl sunday tehe. Like literally drunk too...then I can't wake up the next morning. Grr and we will have school. what a bitch. God and mr. freezer pisses me off too. You know what? he can just suck my non-existing balls seriously. Then my brother TOLD on me for having a cup cake on the bus. What a wonderful brother I have. Kyle is always bothering me about blowing Jonny. Maria bothers Daniela about me kissing Jonny. I can't believe those fuckin idiots think I'm prude. If she wants to see people make out get a fuckin boyfriend. And stop flirting with Manny..he is Daniela's and you know she likes him and you just have to constantly flirt with him right in front of her. GOD rant rant rant.
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[February 3rd 2005|8.43pm] |
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ahh, finally figured out this stupid live journal because I have no life. hrmm bored as fuck I was just talking to Jesus..buahaha. errm I think this layout is so cute and took me like 10-15 minutes to figure out how to get it on my journal because i'm artistically challenged like that and I can't make one myself. If I did it'd take days but oh well. I've made an MCR one and it's hawt. man. Kudos. go Laura. I like the cute little foxes ^_^ woop woop. I need friends. elh lotso. I have this white cap on my desk and from the corner of my eye it looks like a yogurt cover prezel tehe..... so soon I'm going to call Jonny cus I love that kid. I think i'm going to go see boogyman with him tomorrow...hopefully. I'm just jumping around in thoughts. okay so today I was really pissed at like everyone...grrr? rawrs for Laura..hmm yeah. I love you Jonny
Laura
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[February 3rd 2005|8.24pm] |
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Okay, I'm just testing so...erm..I love Jonny
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